Saturday, February 28, 2009

The Way I See It # 501

I feel like beating someone to death.

but no one in particular.... *wink*

I think that the human mind sometimes shuts itself off in order to control...well... uncontrollable anger, and I feel like this is probably a good thing. What's bad is that it leaves you in a pretty weird state, and it's hard to think about anything productive. I have so much to do this week before I go home. I won't be able to get home until Saturday because I have to work on Friday night.

I need to reconsider working at the bookstore. I don't get a lot of hours, and I'm not paid very well. however, I'm afraid I won't be able to find another job.

Something tells me that I'm going to be writing a check for $650 tomorrow, and I won't be getting reimbursed....

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The Way I See It # 500

Giuseppe Zanotti Printemps ete 2009

When I saw the Giuseppe Zanotti Ad Campaign in my Vogue magazine I was strongly reminded of Richmond style. I could easily someone dressed like this on the weekend, perhaps when it gets a lot warmer. Just at a can of PBR, and this chick is set.

I had lunch with Misha and Ana today, it was so nice to catch up! Plus the weather is wonderful, and so tonight's guild should be really enjoyable.
I definitely am going to soak this weather in, I hear it's supposed to sour up tomorrow, which both disappoints me, and pleases me. While I pine for warmer weather, I feel that my boots haven't been given the right amount of attention they're due.

I need to figure out my summer plan. I'm thinking that I'm going to look in to a job at the science or history museums here in Richmond, that might be a way to see if I like Museum studies and the environment. Also, if I get a bike, it won't be that hard.
I think that while that thought is in my head, I'll go research it now.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

The Way I See It # 499

Kara visited this weekend and it was awesome! I really hope she comes to VCU, I know she would have a really awesome time.

On another note I've just enjoyed a dinner of left-over spaghetti, fried pork chops, and white wine. It's pretty tasty. I'm also watching to Oscars right now, which is cool, but I have so much work to do for Witchcraft and I also have to shower. I can't forget about yoga tomorrow morning, I really need to go regularly. It's at 8 AM so it shouldn't be too bad.

I was so lazy today, I fell asleep on Kara which was realllllyyy lame.

I feel like I never talk about the things I do.

Thursday: Went to work and went to Guild. Good times! I had a lot of fun!
Friday: Took kara to Lucy's birthday party, and that was fun. Paul dumped champagne on my boots. I almost killed him.

Saturday: Saw Quantum of Solace at commons. Definitely not as good as Casino Royale.

I can't focus on this blog!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

The Way I See It # 498

Although I cleaned my apartment the other night, my bed is a disaster area. I have all of my school work splayed out around me, and I'm sitting here with the realization that I ate an entire footlong Subway sub for dinner. And I just finished the rest of my Ben and Jerry's. Goddammit. I mean, I shouldn't feel bad. I was hungry and I took care of that. ugh, fuck it.

I studied for my french test, and I think I'll be fine, I also did my readings.
I just remembered that I have work tomorrow from 5-9:30, which will blow because work is so mind numbingly boring.


The Way I See It # 497

Never have I ever:

Made a huge mess at the Starbucks condiment stand. I was just standing there, minding my own business, and my iced caramel macchiato decided to be a LITTLE BITCH. What? You don't like straws? Fuck you, and fuck the fact that I got nearly half my drink all over the counter. ugghh.

Today the weather is terrible, but I'm slightly tempted to stay out in the rain to see how long it takes me to get soaked. I have a French test tomorrow, and I have to read parts of Genisis and Exodus for my Global Ethics class. Not too shabby, but I'm worried about my french test. I've been feeling behind and so now I'm worried about my grades. My homework has been outrageously incorrect, but I'm hoping she appreciates my effort.

I took a shower this morning and decided to let my hair air dry. I forgot how curly it gets. Though I am rocking a little Film-Noir bang action.

I also am rocking those glasses from a while ago. My teacher in Archaeology this afternoon didn't recognize me.

Dear boy with Red Hat,
Were you drunk last class? You sat down next to me and I strongly smelled Pabst. You also don't take notes, ever, and I'm wondering why you're in archaeology. Also, you're in my Art history class, do you participate in day-time drinking, then too?
Just curious, you never speak.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

The Way I See It # 496

My life is so boring. Nothing is happening and I guess I should be grateful. Nothing bad had happened, and really with everything that everyone else seems to be going through, I should be counting my stars. I'm feeling for a friend right now who has just had shit dumped on top of her in rapid succession. She's opening up to me, and I'm worried that my hesitance to make a helpful gesture is coming off as insincere. I want to help, but I haven't figured her out yet, and because I haven't I don't know how to help her. I guess just be there to listen and check up on her is what I should be (and have been) doing, and I hope for right now that that is enough.

I'm in the library right now waiting to go to Art History. I'm standing at a computer because there are no stations available, but I don't really mind. My legs and shoulders are stiff from yoga, and standing is helping that out, I think.

I'm making an exceptional racket on the third floor. I haven't been up here in a while, and I forgot just how much talking goes on. Everyone seems to be looking at me once in a while, probably because I'm not really looking at the computer screen and because I'm typing incredibly fast. It's so loud, no wonder people are staring. Maybe I'll get a missed connection about this.

GIRL TYPING LOUDLY AT CABELL (m4w)(Cabell library)

I mean, I hope so. Really if I wanted to be obnoxiously loud I'd be doing a dance in the boots I'm wearing, as they are already deafening when I walk across a hardwood floor (or in this case Linoleum). I feel as though people get annoyed just by me walking into a room. some say that the sound of a pair of high heels is empowering. Sometimes I feel like this; like I can kick ass and take names in these boots I'm wearing. Other time, though, I feel as though I'm just to jerk in a loud pair of shoes.

I feel like I have been eating too much. Maybe it's because this girl I know continues to make fat remarks in my direction. She thinks she's being funny, I think she's a real BITCH. UGH I can't stand her. She can suck my dick.

Alright, time to go, enough of the loud typing, it's time to pound linoleum.

Monday, February 16, 2009

The Way I See It # 495

First, A Story:

I was sitting in the commons this afternoon, and after having finished my lunch of Alpine Bagel, I decided to start some reading for my Ethics class. I noticed a girl I recognized from my Linguistics class last semester sit down near me, and didn't really think anything of it. As I was reading, a quote caught my eye, and I decided to write it down so I would remember it. The quote was "All humans will be judged on the good things they might have enjoyed, but did not". It is a rabbinic saying, and I think it's really wonderful. When I'm done writing it in ink on my wrist I look up and I see that this girl I recognized is staring at me, so I look back down and continue reading. Out of the corner of my eye I see her get up and leave. Whatever, that's normal, no big deal.
a minute later I hear
I look up and she is a foot away from my face.
She says, "What's that?" pointing at my book.
I figure she's recognized me and might think that I'm reading for Abse's class. I don't know why I thought this, and as expected, I was wrong.
I say, "Oh, this is for Ethics." and my book has "ETHICS" written across the cover.
She says, "That's Funny."
Then she points at my wrist, where I've written the quote.
She says, "I meant, what's THAT?" pointing much more sternly.
I stare at her, "Oh," I say, "It's from the book. it's a quote I just read that I liked."
She says, "Oh, it's a quote?"
Me: "yeah?"

She then tells me that she thought I was cheating, and that's why she had come over, to accuse me of cheating and and tell me that I "Don't need to do that to be successfull"

BUT since I wasn't cheating she was embarrassed, and I think, relieved.
She also didn't know who the fuck I was and introduced herself, to which I replied:
"Yeah, I know who you are, we had linguistics together last semester. I'm lisa."
she said, "Oh, well, sorry about that. I'm just a busy-body."
I said, "Apparently."

what the fuck? If I saw someone cheating, first, I don't think I would jump to conclusions and assume they were cheating! Fuck you, Harry Potter (as I called her in my class), you don't know me, and you certainly don't have the right to threaten me if I AM cheating.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

The Way I See It # 494

I woke up late and now I feel overwhelmed by what I have to do today. Really, it isn't a lot, and I'm not quite sure what I would rather be doing. I guess anything else. I shouldn't complain, I could be working all day today (though very unlikely). I have a couple pressing matters that I really need to take care of:
1. Clean my apartment
2. Laundry
3. Shower
4. Homework (French, Archaeology, and Withcraft readings)

Last night I ordered Thai food for dinner and ended up spending way too much, but at least it will last me another day of either dinner or lunch. How boring am I? All I have to talk about is food? I mean, I was really excited about it, and I think that fact in and of itself is kind of sad. What makes it particularly sad is that I was excited about Thai Food on Valentine's day, and that was about all I had to look forward to. I was invited out to a party by Andrew and Michele, but really the last thing I wanted was to go and feel like a third wheel on Valentine's Day. Now, that might not have happened, but I wasn't miserable at home, and I've been out the last two nights. I think sometimes I need a break, and especially when I might feel uncomfortable on a stupid holiday such as that. Fuck Valentine's Day, I don't think you need a day to show how you feel about your significant other. Maybe I'm completely full of bullshit, because I do like getting things on Valentine's day, and I think that it is nice to go out and have a romantic evening. But also that should be happening all the time. I guess when it isn't, that's when I see Valentine's day as something important: a reassurance, which I guess isn't very good considering it shouldn't be.

My friend Zane sent out Lego Valentine's Day cards to all of his friends, and I found one on my front door when I got home. I don't really know him very well, but I felt touched that he included me.

Work yesterday was an awful bore, and I really don't know how I kept myself occupied. There was nothing to fold, nothing to do, no one called so I couldn't answer the phone, and there were no customers. And I'm supposed to make myself look busy? I must have cleaned the registers, computers, and front desk a billion times, and then I was left to read. Now, I like reading on the job, but my managers disapprove. This sounds so dumb to me. Shouldn't Barnes and Noble employees look like well-read individuals? it seems so ironic to be working in a bookstore and not be allowed to read. Well, I did, and there was nothing good around. I read cookbooks, which only made me feel inadequate because I wanted to make all of the dishes in the "Pasta" book but I don't have the kitchen equipment to do so. I need to get on that. It would be nice to come back home after work and make dinner. I hate buying frozen food, and I feel dumb when I tell people I can't cook. So after reading all those cook books I ordered out Thai Food.

So I think the plan for today is to get cleaned up, shafer, and then head to the library to study because I can't focus in my cluttered apartment. My plan for this evening will be to come back, finish the Thai food and clean my apartment/ do laundry.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

The Way I See It # 494

Today has been quite the lazy Saturday. I ate with Michele, and that is quite literally all that I have done. I work from 5 to 9:30 tonight, and then I think I have a date with Amelie and some Thai food take out.

I don't understand how some people can just blatantly ignore you. How is someone capable of that?

I bet no one will come into the bookstore tonight.... sigh. I will be folding shirts and sweatshirts all night. I realized that Elephant Thai closes at 10, and I'm "supposed" to get off at 9:30. If I get off and Elephant Thai is closed, I will flip my shit. Thai food sounds so good!

The Way I See It # 493

Tonight was a fun night overall. I really have to to hand it to Sid, who was nice enough to ride me to Broad street and make sure I got home safely. For that, I thank him.

The party tonight was weird in the beginning, but over time is definitely got better.
1. Hung out with some girls from the guild group including Lauren and Breanne and Colleen
2. Talked to Andrew A LOT, which was nice because I don't know him that well, and it was nice to be one on one with him. He was nice, and could tell I was having trouble socializing. I think he's a really nice guy. And he gave me a cranberry and vodka cocktail, so that was a plus.
3. I finally got Captain America Guy out of my hair, and gave him the P.B.O (Polite Brush Off). Hopefully he won't bother me again. Weird, he wouldn't stop pestering me to go out/hang out with him, but I doubt he knows anything about me.
4. I played a miserable game of beer pong, and then a girl bumped into the table, sending my beer flying. I was kind of happy to see it gone.

but I am.... not feeling my best, and I should really go to sleep.
Good night!

Friday, February 13, 2009

The Way I See It # 492

Will I be in this situation every weekend? I guess if things are awkward/weird I can always leave. I think I can hold my own, I hope so. I know people, I get along with everyone, I shouldn't be worried.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

The Way I See It # 493

I'm wondering why it is so difficult to find stylish messenger bags. They all are either ugly or bulky, and they don't have nice prints. I just want something that goes across the body, is comfortable, and looks nice, and it seems that that is too much to ask for.
Oh well, my search continues.

I'm waiting around to eat at Shafer, and I'm currently in the library. It's beautiful outside, but the wind is seriously an issue with hair as long as mine. I have a head band on, but it doesn't seem to make a difference.

I have work at 5:30 tonight, and I realized that I really don't like working at the book store. It's incredibly boring, and all I do is fold shirts. Also, I'm barely authorized to do anything, and this makes me feel useless as an employee. I shouldn't complain because they could have booted me, I could be working ridiculous hours, and I'm not doing any of those things. So I work for..... 3.5 hours tonight? 5:30-9. yeah, 3.5 hours. That sucks! I guess it isn't too bad because the work is mind-numbing, and it's not like I'm there until 10. Tonight is guild, which should be fun, at least I have that to look forward to.

Michele mentioned something about going to DC on Monday to see a presentation about the Peace Core. I'm not sure if I'm going to go with her, as she asked, because I have class. Though I have yet to miss a class in either of my classes on Mondays, and Sarah could take notes for me in one of the classes. Maybe I will, I love DC.

I need to go home soon. I think I mention this every day to at least one person. I think that if Michele goes home next month I'll hit her up for a ride. It would be nice to come home for a bit and get some things taken cared of.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

The Way I See It # 491

Because I'm still up and on the computer:

Via: Youtube

The Way I See It # 490

I'm currently watching "1000 Ways To Die" This show seemed interesting on the commercial, but it is so fucked up. All of the situations shown are the show are actually ways that people have died. This one guy did a gag of running at a window, and planning to bounce off of it, but instead he busted through it. This next guy is getting caught in a wood chipper. Like, this show is fucking graphic! Like, I'm seriously grossed out, but I can't look away. His friend should have pulled him out of the wood chipper! Like WHAT THE FUCK! DON'T STICK YOUR FOOT INTO A WOOD CHIPPER TO UNBLOCK IT. Oh my god.

I'm finding it cathartic to toss stuff across my apartment. Clothes, books, shoes, etc. They're all flying into my futon, and it feels really good to see all of it piling up.

I'm pleased! I just checked my test grade for Art history, and I got a 100! I never got a 100 last semester, so this is sick. I'm happy about it!

Today was so gorgeous! I wish it was spring break/summer. Speaking of Spring Break, I still really want to go to Mexico. I'm not sure if this is possible. I haven't looked at any travel sites, maybe I will now. It's late, and normally I do random/stupid things on the computer until I can't keep my eyes open.

I missed yoga all week this week. Ugh. That sucks, but I've been so exhausted and so busy it would have been impossible to stay awake at all.
I work tomorrow 5:30-9, so that will be nice. Next week I work on Thursday, and that's it, so I don't have to worry about fixing my schedule for when Kara comes to visit.

there is a draft in my window, and apparently it's really windy outside, my blinds have been rattling all night. Also, I realized that there is a loud sound outside on the street every morning around 7 AM that always wakes me up. It sounds like a leaf blower. but I never remember to think of it, until just know that is.

I seriously can't watch this show. Now a sword swallower is swallowing an umbrella, and IT IS GOING TO OPEN! Holy shit this show is ridiculous.

Now, a woman will die from using a carrot as a.... dildo*. Sigh....
I think that's my cue to end this.

oh shit. my blinds just blew out of my window.

*apparently, the carrot cut through her vaginal wall, air got in, and traveled through her arteries and up into her heart, causing death.

Monday, February 9, 2009

The Way I See It # 489

I really need to stay on top of my work. While I'm not exactly drowning, I'm finding myself procrastinating a lot, and because of this I'm at the library studying and making sure I'm ready for the day. Maybe this is ordinary behavior for a student that I just haven't been following?
After getting a grade lower than I wanted on my Archaeology exam, I'm putting my nose to the grind stone and completely ALL of the readings for every class. I realized that there were a lot of readings I just couldn't catch up on last time around. But, an hour before my class starts I've finished the last of the reading and I am on track in Archaeology.

French is another story. Because I thought I was getting sick I decided to skip French and remedy myself with preventative sleep-measures. This might have been a mistake, but at the moment I've averted disease and I'm ready to jump back into the game. Too bad I have a writing assignment and an entire topic I haven't learned to leap into.

Also I have an Art History exam which I only just made slides for. Tonight will include massive amounts of slide-memorizing and Starbucks coffee (Not plain coffee, that stuff is terrible.)

However, this weekend was fun, the weather was gorgeous, and I spent a lot of time with Michele which was really cool. I'm beginning to see that we share the same kind of humor, which is nice, because I hate getting those weird stares from everyone else.

My witchcraft class will be held at an undisclosed location today due to some concerns about a student in our class with a rogue agenda. I would get into the whole story, but it's long, and I have some French to do (apparently).

Saturday, February 7, 2009

The Way I See It #488

Today started out weird. I woke up a number of times throughout the night. I regret not going out, and then again I don't. Whatever. I want to do something fun today, but I'm not sure if I want to go to the Basketball game. I'm in a weird mood, which isn't good for such a beautiful day. I'm becoming socially reliant again, and this is upsetting me. It makes me want to stay inside rather than admit that I can't tread on my own. But I'm thinking that that is exactly what I shouldn't do. Maybe I'm just upset with myself, and because that's the case, I'm feeling like this today.

I'm officially sick of "Paper Planes"

I'm trying to set up a savings account, but I'm going to have to go into a branch to do that. Bummer.

YES. ahhhhh finally something good.

Friday, February 6, 2009

The Way I See It # 487

Once again I am socially paralyzed. I think it might be natural to feel a bit nervous about heading out to a party where a bunch of people will be that you only know through one person that won't be there. I really want to go, but I would have to bike there, it's late, the last time I went to a party like this without Michele (or rather, she left early) I felt awkward, weird, and altogether uncomfortable. And there's something about waiting for someone to get there that I find... disconcerting. I don't want to be that persona that waits around for someone. While I'd like to see them, a lot, I just don't feel like I can put myself through waiting all night. Ugh. Maybe I'll remedy this tomorrow. Point is, is that I need to grow a pair and just throw myself out there. I've been making steps forward, but this step just makes me too.... awkward for my own good.

I found out that I AM on the work schedule next week! YES. Only problem is, is that I'm working on Valentine's Day... oh well, I didn't have plans anyway. However, I'm trying to see The Glass Menagerie, so I hope that there's a show on Friday I can see.... If not there are some the next week.. Though KARADACTAL is visiting! I'm uber excited, and I hope she has a lot of fun!

John came over to get his Get Well card that bounced back in the mail. It was nice catching up with him, I rarely see him anymore!

I find that apple slices with peanut butter is perhaps the most delicious snack that has ever been conceived.

I think I'll cuddle up with Dante's Inferno and hope that someone calls to inquire as what my wherabouts are.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

The Way I See It # 486

I feel exhausted, and I still have the whole day to finish. I went to yoga this morning. Rather, I dragged myself out of bed and forced myself. Since I didn't go on Monday, I felt like today's yoga session would be hard, and it was. I definitely felt it, and I have yet to really master a lot of the moves. Maybe if I practiced every day it would work out, but for now I'm feeling like a rubber band... I stretch out and snap right back again.

The weather has been ridiculous. I wore shorts on Monday, and yesterday I was caught in a thick snow flurry. While it was magical at the moment, I'm waiting for Summer to come along.

But while I'm dreaming about Belle Isle, tanning, and hot weather, I'm stuck in the library (well, maybe not stuck) trying to focus my attention on Archaeology. I shouldn't have looked at the blackboard site, because after finding out that this exam only counts 15% my motivation has taken a serious plunge. In all other respects I'm feeling good, besides exhausted. I went to 821 this morning and had lox and bagels, which was even more satisfying than I could have hoped for. Everything Bagel+Lox+Cream Cheese+Basil+Tomato= awesome. I'll have to spread the word to my family when Christmas brunch comes around.... in another year.

My aspirations for starting up a fashion magazine at VCU have been slightly squashed. I went to a party run by the guy who heads Ink Magazine (MISHAAA), and I talked to him about it. He kind of discouraged me, but at the same time encouraged me to submit some stuff about fashion for Ink. I'm still debating, however it seems that everyone is writing for the Magazine; Misha, my friend Marc, and now apparently Sid who has decided to write an article about a subject that most of us would leave at home.... interesting.

some cool sites I've been addicted to the past couple of days:
It's a design based blog where anyone can submit material to be published on the site. Really cool. basically if you find something interesting online, they encourage you to share it with everyone. Awesome for inspiration and hours of procrastination
A sub-site of NotCot, Notcouture is all about fashion, and I'm excited to say that some of my submissions have made it to the site, which is both exciting and addicting. They promote designers, showcase collections, and it's a good place to find obscure things not seen in the mainstream blogosphere.

lately i've been googling "how to cut your own hair" because I'm trying to avoid going home/paying for travel at all costs. Really, i would like to cut my bangs, but what I've found online hasn't been very helpful. Does anyone (ie: no one) remember that gadget they used to run infomertials for that was like a comb, but it cut the split-ends off of your hair? I need that like I need air to breath, my hair is in such bad shape.

For this blog having the name "My Life As A Starbucks Coffee Cup", I had only had plain coffee from Starbucks once, and it was at a time that I didn't like coffee, so it tasted bad to me. However, I'm drinking a grande House blend, and it is absolutely terrible. Starbucks, what is your problem? This coffee is so bad, I can barely drink it. Where is an IHOP when you need one? IHOP coffee is so good... i miss it. Are there even pancake houses in Richmond, VA? Can someone point me in the right direction?

Interesting facts I've learned in school so far:
1. An Australopithecine Child's (Pre-Homo habilis/ Homo Erectus) skull was found in Southern Africa. Upon closer review just recently, several puncture marks were found in the bones surrounding the eye sockets. It is believe that the child was picked up by an Eagle (Talons IN THE EYE SOCKETS) and carried off to be eaten, and the remains are what was found.

2. Also, Australopithecines were prey, not predators, and were regularly apart of the Leopard's diet.

3. In Michaelangelo's "Expulsion From Paradise"

The position of Adam in Eve (to the left) is EXACTLY WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE.

That's about all I have to say for right now. I think this is the longest blog post I've done in a while. I think it was time for some more details, and less ambiguity.

Monday, February 2, 2009

The Way I See It # 485

Waiting feels different now.

I welcome change, but I'd forgotten how this feels.

I'm impatient.