Sunday, November 30, 2008
maybe the use of "Amazing" was too strong.
I'm geekin' out over my Final lab project in physics.
I have had an eye twitch since the weekend started, and it's getting furious.
I have so much to do.
I decorated my apartment for the holiday season! (+5 experience points)
As much as I liked being home, I'm glad to be back in Richmond.
Tomorrow starts and insane week
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Tonight she asked me why I couldn't get a ride back and I fumbled with an answer. I think she was a bit annoyed that she had to drive me back. She wasn't unwilling, but I think driving me back wasn't at the top of her to-do list for tomorrow.
Am I selfish? I know she's tired, and I know she works a lot. She worked all weekend on preparing for Thanksgiving, put up with Dad, dealt with Grandma, and all of us.
I wish things were like they were when Mom wasn't working.
I think I might be bitter about this.
I've decided to not work at Restoration Hardware this winter. I didn't realize that Jackie would be home without a car... and if Christina and Kara get jobs too, it's going to be a nightmare.
So instead, I'll be working for my Dad's company.
I think I might regret this. However, he says there is research he needs done, and also filing, so I'm down for doing secretarial work if it keeps me the hell away from Tysons. I would like to enjoy shopping on my winter break, thank you very much.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Am I weird?
I may find this too dark tomorrow.
I'm decorating the house for Christmas with my family tomorrow! I'm excited! We normally don't decorate this early, but we're never home, so it makes sense. :)
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, that should be fun...
Generally speaking, Being home just isn't the same anymore. Maybe because I live alone, Maybe because Mom works a lot now, maybe because my relationship with Dad is becoming even more strained.... sometimes I just don't enjoy being home.
However, Christina, Mom, and I talked with Jackie over Gmail's chitchat, and that was hilarious. I wish she could be here, but Law School is more important, so it's whatever.
We all talked tonight, and afterward I felt good about where I am in life. I feel like I'm in a good place. Things are good.
currently listening to: Dada Yakuza
Monday, November 24, 2008
but it turned out you were just a street light,
you were burning like a hole in the night."
- Chad VanGaalen, City Of Electric Light
I think la belleza is slowly but surely reappearing in my life. The semester is about to end, I'm going home for Thanksgiving tomorrow, and I think my finals are going to be alright. I really need to start studying, and while I don't think it's possible to regain my 4.0 status, I'm okay with it. My biggest challenge will be getting into the classes I want before the new semester starts and deciding whether or not I want to apply for that internship this summer. if not, I can always volunteer, right?
I'm feeling "deja vu" from around a year ago, and it's pretty damn wonderful.
note to self: buy envelopes when back in NOVA
Sunday, November 23, 2008
So I'm completely perturbed about my wallet situation. It was either lost (although I don't understand how I could have lost it) or stolen out of my purse. Now I have a lot of work to do with that, plus my physics final project, Thanksgiving, finals, and whatever the fuck. Good thing I don't keep my student ID in my wallet because I would have no money and no way to eat. (phew!)
I hope no one decides to use my SS # and ruin my credit....
because that would probably ruin my life.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I have so much work to do:
1. Go to Lowes and buy weights for physics lab
2. Read chapter 7 in "Ways With Words" for the group project in Linguistics
3. Write up paragraph on the picture for french group project
4. Study for French exam
5. Get lab space on Monday and Tuesday and FINISH physics final project
6. power point-it-up over Thanksgiving
7. keep checking on Witchraft class to register.... if not.... whatever.
8. Talk with mom over decision about Internship this summer.
9. Wait for Mac people to email me about an interview.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Going to kroger was awesome. As much as the walk back sucked, I feel better when I have groceries. Also, I like grocery shopping for some reason.
But I'm back in my apartment, cleaning up, and getting cozy. I'm heading to Shafer soon, which is awesome because I basically haven't eaten all day.
I woke up late, around 12, and then headed over to Sarah's at 1:30 to help her write up her paper. Then the whole Kroger thing happened, then the whole frozen hands thing happened..... and I'm back here.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Put It In A Boat
Light It On Fire
You Can Use The Kerosene
Take My Body
Put It In A Boat
Light It On Fire
Send It Out To Sea"
-"Willow Tree" by Chad VanGaalen
Winter Lighting, and we're going to have Ice Skating!
I'm really excited, only the rink looks so small!
Maybe I will take some pictures?
However, my partner wasn't there! I may never
see him again. He was nice. Dear Lab Partner:
You were really cool to work with. Perhaps I'll
run into you on campus and say hello n an awk-
ward fashion? If so, that would be nice. Until
then, enjoy your life. :)
for Thanksgiving. Is Any-
one going home by car?
Train tickets are expensive
and going fast! I can't wait
to go home.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Correction: I found 2.
Note to self: Get a trim over Thanksgiving.
I feel good, besides the fact that I didn't take notes on 2 chapters of Urban Planning. I really don't care anymore. I'm going tonight, but it will be a nice evening of blogging and picture collecting. I feel so bad talking about this class and how I waste my time. I should focus, but when my teacher marks me down a whole point just because I used contractions in an informal paper.... I get upset. And when I get upset, I do my minimal and don't worry about it.
I've decided to collect old Christmas decorations over thanksgiving and decorate my apartment. I think it would be really awesome. If I could somehow get my hands on a really small tree then I could decorate it and invite people over for eggnog.
Ok, so I realized that I fantasize a lot about apartment life, the holidays, and apparently home decoration. Should I fix this? I don't think it matters.
I like puzzle pieces. I recently found one that had been missing for a while. Now the puzzle is complete! It's awesome, and I think I'll keep the puzzle around for a while. :)
"Does It Hurt?
ooh, doesn't really matter
Does It Burn?
Oh no... don't feel a thing
Does It Sting?
Oh yeah, really doesn't matter
Does it Hurt?
Oh... Don't give a damn
When I find myself falling and I hit the bottom, it only makes me laugh."
Sunday, November 16, 2008
- Diane Frolov/Andrew Schneider
Friday, November 14, 2008
So I'm going to ask a question, and I better get some answers:
A house is on fire. Inside it are a cat and a Rembrandt. Which do you save?
(for those who don't know, Rembrandt is a famous artist, and his pieces are called as such.)
And because I just finished with Shafer I'm feeling particularly nauseous, but I think the feeling will pass. I don't have French today, so this morning is dedicated to my linguistics assessment that needs to be finished before I catch a train to Williamsburg later tonight. I don't have too much work to focus on, which is good considering I plan on having a lot of fun this weekend.
As for last night I spent the night at Sarah's place. I'm glad I could be there for her. She broke her collar bone in a collapsing deck incident (you've probably heard of it: Last weekend on Cary there was a party where the second story deck just collapsed under the weight of everyone. About 20 people were sent to the hospital. Sarah broke her Collar bone, and her roommate Emma broke her back. More were injured just the same.) So, as her collar bone is broken, and she's nearly incapacitated. I helped her get out of bed this morning, I put her hair up, I opened bottles for her, I tied her shoes.
It's weird, I was always told as a kid that if someone every grabbed me, or tried to attack me, I should go for the collar bone. It only takes seven pounds of pressure to break it, and it makes your attacker immobile. Now I can fully appreciate what this looks like, I guess.
I'm also going to be helping Sarah out with typing up her papers (she's in English 200), and while her mother offered me payment, I'm going to refuse it. They already bought me a $10 starbucks gift card, and that's more than enough.
Luckily, Sarah's boyfriend is coming up early to visit and take care of her. He was also at the party but only suffered a hurt ankle.
Anyway, I should get back to my assessment.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
So what do I have to do? Last week my professor in Urban Planning cancelled class last minute and decided to assign us 2 chapters to be tested on tomorrow. Ugh. I hate that class. I never really hate classes, but really hate this one. I now have to write notes for two chapters and then take a quiz by tomorrow night. Whatever. I guess it's another long night.
I've started writing again and I'll be submitting to the Commonwealth Times. Sweet! Look for my next article, wouldja?
Monday, November 10, 2008
I feel like I should be locked in a room left only to myself to find the answers. Finding them elsewhere doesn't seem to be working.
All I have to keep me company are these fruit flies that I absolutely despise.
I let my guard down. Obviously. I feel embarrassed and..... not ashamed.... but I feel as though I'm being judged, and no one knows the whole story. All I have is my reputation, and because I was impulsive, I'm at risk of ruining it (in at least someone's eyes). How did I let this happen? Where did my judgment go? My good intuition?
I hope I still have it.
I hope I'm making everything right.
Friday, November 7, 2008
However nice the sleeping was, I was unsettled by the dreams I had. Normally I'm not one to be really keen on violence, but lately my dreams have been incredibly violent, and in the dream I don't really care. I actually take part in the violence personally, and while things are happening, it's as though I can't feel the pain of what I'm being subjected to, and what I'm doing/experiencing. It's really strange. And the violence is ridiculous. It's not bombs, or guns.... people are using swords and sharp things to cut everyone else up. They're CUTTING people in half! People are getting slash, I'm being slashed, and yet I remain whole and pain-free. It's ridiculous.
From Dream Moods:
To dream that you killed someone, forewarns that heavy stress may cause you to lose your temper and self-control. Identity the characteristics of the person that you have killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards this person in your waking life. You may be expressing some rage or hatred toward this person.
To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions.
This dream may also represent a part of you or your life that you wish would leave you alone and stop creating a nuisance. Killing may represent the killing off of old parts of yourself and old habits."
To dream that you have committed a murder, indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and your former ways of thinking."
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
But I'm not going to write about the election, or those Polly pessimists, or the fact that a lot of people don't even know Obama's policies... or that I've just experienced a life-changing historical moment, or anything like that. I feel as though there isn't much to say that hasn't already been said.
But like I said, I have this itching in my finger tips to make a connection with my key board, and where else am I going to satisfy the urge? I'm left with an empty night due to the fact that my Urban Planning Professor canceled class 15 minutes prior.... so I'm at commons trying to keep myself occupied until I get hungry or decide to walk home in the drizzle.
A couple entries ago I noted the fact that I feel like I am in a powerful position, and I'm determined to keep my life following this track. I sometimes feel invincible, and I don't want it to end. I think I've finally realized that I have the "ball in my court" so to speak, and the world is my oyster. Really, nothing can go wrong. It's almost as if just as this country is on the brink of change, so am I. I would like to think in a romantic sense that my life is in tandem with the state of the world.... ripe for change.... eager for new experiences... but I fear this may be jumping the gun (something I'm always afraid of doing.)
I feel as thought flats make my feet look dainty.
Is this weird?
I'm staring at my feet, and I've noticed that I particularly like the way they look in skimmers, such as the ones I am wearing.
Before I headed over to Urban Planning, I was attending a lecture on Paleopathology (The study of disease in ancient times) and Peruvian Mummies. Really interesting stuff, but it was entirely too biological. However, as I have finally (FINALLY!) declared my major as Anthropology, I can get started on my World Studies Passport, which is this little doo-hicky that I need to have completed before I graduate. I essentially have to go to lectures and seminars and learn things that are really cool, and then have proof that I went and had a rockin' time.
maybe I should eat before it gets too late.
I was talking to Sarah Waks today and we both agreed that it feels incredibly depressing and lonely to realize that you don't have anyone to go to shafer with. Isn't that the saddest? While I fully appreciate flying solo at Shafer during the day, there's just something about when night falls that makes me want to feel...... interactive with other people. I just shudder at the thought of eating alone at night. I mean, I experience this at home when I eat there, but somehow at Shafer it is different. Probably because I'm not eating left-overs while laying in bed watching The Girls Next Door.
I think Shafer should install beds.
Wait... No. I take that back.
I applied for a YAAB! A YAAB! (job).
I'm trying to be an Apple Campus Representative at VCU.
1. It's awesome.
2. It pays well
3. I can get a free mac book out of the deal
4. I get more experience in sales! :)
I think I have it in the bag, which is good because this means that if I get the job.... I might not have to work at Tysons over winter break, and that's oh-so appealing to me right now. Resto. I love you to pieces, but I'm scared that all the people I worked with won't be back (they would be insane to be there...), and that I'll kill myself with the winter crowd. Summer I may return.... but then again the Mac position is a full year job....so.... mabes not! :D
Having a job over next semester will be good too because I can actually amass money to start a savings account. All my talk of getting into the market (well... that's pretty much gone now) and I don't even have the safest form of investment!
More money would mean that I would have a surplus, which is good because I really want to move in to the apartment next to mine. The girl that lives there is a senior, and I met her last night. She's awesome. And her apartment is a dream. A REAL DREAM. I can't believe how nice it is. The only problems with it are noise from the garbage guys in the morning, and the bartender who lives behind her.
With the extra money I'd cough up the difference in rent ($875) to live there. So I'd pay 225 a month.... hmmmm...
At least I'd be able to entertain!
Maybe I'll just ask my landlord for a new stove?
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
This is great. Not only because my party is now in the White House once again, but because I think that either McCain or Obama would have brought about significant Change, and that's what we need.
I'm excited by the cheering in the streets, and the honking of horns that I can hear through my glassy windows, and I feel enlivened. This is the start of something new.
And I contributed to it. I did something for my country, and it feels good.
It feels so good.
And this is good for breaking the mold..... We finally have a Minority President Elect!
Monday, November 3, 2008
The last couple weeks have made realizations known to me, and formerly I would have scoffed, given in to submission and gone along with it, conforming to an idea that I don't believe in. but I am stronger now, and will happily step in the other direction. This gives me joy, this gives me power, a power that I didn't know I could attain before. While I am an equal, I am on another level. I wouldn't call it enlightenment, but I would call it something close to that. I realize that I am no longer to be swayed by the currents we all face, and What I would have normally let manipulate me and turn me into something else, I'm reflecting the shock, and instead I hope to reverberate to my peers, to my friends, and to strangers the goodness in standing up for what you believe in, what you choose to let pass you by, and what you choose to hold on to.
I'm letting go of what I once was, and I'm becoming something new.
I've finally realized the secret.... and it's only a matter of time before I let you in on it.
My imagination is blinding, my insight is steady, and my mind is clear.
I have arrived.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Here are some ideas:
1. Make it a point to get wasted every night. This is obviously what I'll be doing alone in my apartment
2. pick up a hobby. I personally am going to buy a 2000 piece puzzle and "git er done"
3. buy a pet. Ignore it after a week and return it.
4. hit up Cabell Library, where the drinks are always a-flowin', and the knowledge is always a-spreadin'.
5. clean out your ungodly mess of an iTunes library. (You KNOW this applies to you.)
6. Ask your professors for lots of homework
7. Hit up Craigslist's personals and get cozy with a sex-deprived professor. (no joke...)
8. Rather, instead of #7, hit up Craigslist's Missed Connections section. It's a hit. No sarcasm here.
9. Eat dinner earlier...?
10. Lastly, blog a lot. And I mean A LOT. Because the number one thing I'll be doing to pass the time is read all of your blogs that I read.