Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Way I See It # 457: At The Age Of 20 I......

New Year's Resolutions: Final Copy

1. Learn how to cook. (A pasta dish, chicken, a casserole, a dessert, and meat loaf.)

2. Eat more cupcakes in 2009.

3. Read more books for pleasure.

4. Go out more/have more fun.

5. Always look your best.

6. Realize that you are what you are, and everything you do is all apart of what makes you wonderful. Don't doubt yourself, and focus on feeling empowered every day.

What are your New Year's Resolutions?

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

The Way I See It # 456

New Blog layout/color for a new year!

I'm twenty years old, and I'm feeling wonderful about it!

The Way I See It # 455

While I'm sticking to my guns.....

I'm happy you called.

Monday, December 29, 2008

The Way I See it # 454

I feel tired.
I feel unmotivated to do anything.
I can't believe I have this week, and then I'm back in Richmond to work.
Will anyone else be in Richmond next week?
My New Year's Eve plans are sad.
I try to occupy my time on the computer, but there is nothing of substance to do. Does anyone have any good book recommendations? I'm about to start working in a book store and I don't even read.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

The Way I See It # 453

I haven't blogged in a while on any of my blogs, and for that I apologize. But I kind of doubt any of you have been longing for a post since it's the holidays and time is meant to be spent with family. I've been running around shopping, catching up with friends, and dealing with personal issues. So if you've been disappointed by my "baga-ness" ("Laziness), then I apologize again.

I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I've decided that with the coming New Year, I'm going to try my best to make 2009 the best year of my life. While this idea is hackneyed, and just about everyone in the world has the same thought around this time of year, for once in my life I think it really means something. This past year was so incredibly disappointing, that I am determined to right the wrongs, cross the t's, dot the i's, and really get down to business.

I feel like I want to run away a lot. I don't want to face the realizations I've made recently, and I don't want to deal with the problems that I know will hurt me. Who does? But I've decidedly turned my misfortune into a beneficial life situation. Isn't it always said that from the bottom you can only go up? I don't want to wallow in self pity about how this year went, I feel like I need to push myself to get past all this and move forward.

I was looking back at my posts from last year around this time. (They can be found here) My mood was pretty good on New Years. Even though my birthday had started off on the wrong foot, I generally had a good time, as far as I can tell from my blog post. In fact, I remember sleeping over at Sid's house, I think, because we had been drinking with Trey and Julia. It had been a good night. Some of my resolutions were kept, and others not. For example, I did make more girlfriends, and I feel like I do stick up for myself. However, my nails are still being bitten, and I never learned to cook. Oh well, Better luck in 2009.

I think this may be the best year of my life, and maybe the hardest.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

The Way I See It # 452

I hope everyone is enjoying time with family and friends, I know I am!

Merry Christmas!

Monday, December 22, 2008

The Way I See It # 451

I'm watching Steel Magnolias.

I love this movie, I love every character, I love the story, and naturally such a movie makes me cry every time. I can't imagine living through something like that happening to me. I feel like I would just immediately die. I think that I would hope to just immediately die.

I'm not sure if anyone who reads this blog has seen the movie or the play. I definitely recommend it.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

The Way I See It # 450

I remember back in high school the words "embrace life" were written, cleaned off, and rewritten in the stairwell near the senior hallway. I always wondered who had written that, and what their life story was.

I "friended" my old drama teacher on facebook today.

I feel like I'm either feeling shitty, or I'm feeling spectacular. I feel like this won't change for a while.

I can't watch romantic comedies without feeling sad.

I'm happy to have Jackie home.

Tonight was the first time in maybe a year that the whole family has sat down and eaten together. (Right? Someone correct me on this if I'm wrong)

I'm scared. Maybe it's good to be.

I had a really weird dream last night. People that read this blog were in it. It was crazy!

I really like caramel sauce on vanilla ice cream.

As much as I wanted it to be winter, I want to go the beach very badly.

The Way I See It # 449

I'm feeling better... ish. I think that these feelings will only improve with time. I'm going out to lunch with my friend Abby so that should be fun. We're heading to a local place where a lot of people we know might congregate. I think I might mention this before we go. I've realized just how much avoiding I do when I'm back in Vienna. Abby is lucky, and remains anonymous most of the time, but in high school a lot of people knew me, and this has carried over so much that I still have people come up to me and say hi. It's nice, most of the time, but I think everyone can agree that there are people from high school that you would rather just ignore. I don't want to seem like I'm bitching about how people come say hi to me, I just don't like seeing people from high school everywhere I go.

Friday, December 19, 2008

The Way I See It # 448

I have actually been having a lot of fun here at home, I've been working and making some serious cash per hour ($14!) and I already have a job lined up for the semester! I'm happy with my grades, and I'm excited for next semester's classes. Things with Dad haven't been bad, and almost everyone is home. I'm turning 20 soon! How ridiculous!

So why do I feel so crappy?
Can I have my cake and eat it too? Does life work like that? I'm scared that it doesn't, because I don't think I can handle only having one side of this situation.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

The Way I See It # 447

I've been home from work for a couple hours now. I spent most of my day filing papers so the day kind of dragged. Overall, it beats working at a crazy mall on my feet. Right now, however, I am sitting in my living room watching "Bridge To Terabithia". I read this book when I was younger, and I remember really liking the book. However, this movie is nothing like what I imagined. I'm waiting for the ending so I can cry.

Maybe it's that my eyes are tired from filing all day, or that my contacts are drying up, but I have this insane urge to cry. Not sobbing, and not one of those choking/heavy jobs.... but just crying. I don't know. I should be relaxing, but everytime I have a moment to myself I feel like I should be doing something.

Now the boy in this movie is at a museum. I need to get over to the National Gallery.

I'm heading into DC tomorrow to pick Christina up from the metro

oh gosh, it's the end of the movie.
here I go...

Monday, December 15, 2008

The Way I See It # 446


1. Dress more fashionably.
I think this is my goal every year, but it never seems to come around. I think I dress well, but I want to look that much more pulled together. I'm putting a style together for myself, and picking out pieces accordingly... I'm excited. I'm going to try dressing more feminine... not that I haven't been, but the appearance of any kind of skirt has been minimal.

2. Try new things.
I'm going to try and limit my timidness. I need to put myself out there and make more friends. I need to go out more... I think my goal last year was to have more fun, and I did that, but I think I could one up this goal...

more goals to come

Sunday, December 14, 2008

The Way I See It # 445

The Way I See It: Pin-up girls should never have gone out of style....

Photo credit- Alberto Vargas

The Way I See It # 444

(Triple digitzzz)

While none of you care, I would like to mention that I had a goal to drop 5 pounds before my birthday. I've already lost 3!


Saturday, December 13, 2008

The Way I See It # 443

So last night's cocktail party was really fun! I had a great time, and I got to dress up. I didn't take any pictures.... but I'm sure some will show up on Facebook.

The only really bad part of the night was when this guy asked for my number. I told him that I didn't give out my number, and he threw a fit. I have to admit, he was wasted. But he managed to blurt out some pretty bad names in my direction.

Ohhh well...

Friday, December 12, 2008

The Way I See It # 442

Thought I would love to see Oingo Boingo in concert, that will never happen.

But I can settle for Dead Man's Party.

I'm surprised by the vocals!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

The Way I See It #441

I'm done! I'm done, I'm done, I'm done!

So glad for it to be over! Tomorrow's plans consist of :
1. taking out my trash/cleaning my apartment
2. PACK live I am basically moving to another country
3. pay January's rent
4. go to a swank cocktail party tomorrow night (what to wear...)

I'm uber excited for #4!!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

The Way I See It # 440

I'm taking a study break for right now. Art history is interesting, but the memorization needed to be a good student is really repetitive.... it can get old really fast.

But for now I'm listening to music and, of course, blogging.

Today I took my Physics final exam, and it was actually fairly easy. Some of the questions I had to spend a little more time on, but for probably 80% of the test I was flying through it. It was a good feeling since I really want an A on that exam. Hopefully it will work out!

Then tonight I had Urban Planning. I officially hate that class. It wasn't what I expected, really, and I think that was why it was disappointing. I didn't expect to be buried under chapters full of Housing Policies and demographic changes in Singapore. The real kicker was that he told us it was an open note exam, but only told us that it had to be "Paper" notes a couple of hours before the exam. I completely freaked because I had taken very detailed notes on my laptop, each chapter having at least 17 pages each. The exam covered 7 Chapters! I was really stressed, but I managed to print them all off and take the exam. It wasn't bad, I have to admit. It could have been a lot worse. I'll be happy if I get a B, really.

I would really like a 4.0 however. That would boost my GPA (obviously) but it also gives me leverage with my Dad. Is that bad? I'm only trying to get great grades because I use it as leverage? Well, I also work because I like learning and such.... it's just that the benefits of a high grade point average are appealing to me.

alright.... back to Giotto.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

The Way I See It # 439

I think that I have the possibility of having a 4.0 again.

I'm currently freaking out and putting my ass into gear. I HAVE to get an A on this Physics Final so that I can get an A in the class.

BAAHHH... What I would do for another 4.0!!! ADGIABELAUGABDLKBAKEGADBA

Monday, December 8, 2008

The Way I See It # 438

What I'm Currently Listening To:

Sunday, December 7, 2008

The Way I See It # 437

I've spent 10+ hours in the library. I have been here all day and I'm so tired! At least I got everything done, which is what I wanted to do.

Tomorrow I have the study session, then I turn in my Linguistics Assessment.
I'm headed back to Northern VA on Saturday, where I will fall out of the car and kiss the ground.

Can you tell I'm sick of school?

When I get back I plan on doing these things:
1. Going out to dinner with my mom!
2. Going on a Fashion Odyssey
3. Working
4. Doing absolutely nothing
5. Blogging
6. put cute outfits together for winter

In response to Frozenvision's video.... I may be cynical, but I think the tears on that kid were due to his inability to blink.

Am I too cynical?
See for yourself
This Is What You Look Like

Via: Frozen Vision

The Way I See It # 436

I completely forgot how much I love Imogen Heap.

The Way I See It # 435

I'm at the library for the entire day until I:
1. Finish my assessment for tomorrow
2. Make my Art History Slide Show
3. Write notes for Ch. 17 for my open note test
4. go over all Urban Planning notes since the midterm.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

The Way I See It # 434

Once upon a time... from Capucha on Vimeo.

Via: Capucha

The Way I See It # 433

I've been staring at this blog entry page for a while. I'm going to have to agree with Misha about limiting what we write on our blogs due to their personal nature. However, I can't help but wonder how freeing it would be if I was a complete open book. Would I feel better? Would I be embarrassed? Would I be judged? Yes, yes, yes. I told my friend John once that I have another private blog just for personal stuff, and he couldn't understand why I just didn't use a word document for it. I guess I sometimes feel like it's easier to throw out my emotions and feelings to anonymous strangers than I do to people I know personally. Because I hate having my feelings to myself. I don't like the fact that there is no one I can really talk to here at VCU who will just listen without judgment. Wait.... I take that back. Everyone can judge, rather, everyone feels they need to put their two cents in. I just want a sponge. I want someone who I can relay all of my feelings, frustrations, fears, and short comings to, and they won't have the immediate solution for me. I'm not looking for a solution, I'm looking for an ear.

Also, I'm incredibly afraid of gossip. It's when people step beyond putting their two cents in, and decide to tell everyone else what they think about someone else's situation.

all this talk makes me feel very lonely.....

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The Way I See It # 432

Linguistics is kicking my ass with this final assessment that has been assigned! I could scream. Also, French is just one more thing to worry about.....

I can't wait for this all to be over!

The Way I See It # 431

Physics Done.
Linguistics Done.
Urban Planning Done.

To do-

Study for French Exam part Deux tomorrow
Assessment with Sarah
Read and take Final notes on CH. 17 for Urban Planning
Group study on Monday Dec. 8 at 1pm second floor Cabell for Physics Final
Make Art History slide show

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

The Way I See It # 430

Midnight Breakfast at Shafer on Monday.

Anyone up for being trampled?

The Way I See It # 429

I am EXHAUSTED, but today was a good day, and that's what matters. I'm ready to kick my finals in the ass.

I think I will take a nap and then finish studying for my French final tomorrow. I shouldn't have a problem.

It's weird that I've been having my last classes. I feel like I'm going to be in them for another few weeks! Where's the closure?

I am, however, excited to go home and relax. I need to go shopping, hahaha. I really think that it would cheer me up.

I need to figure out my rent situation while I'm at home.... especially if the mail doesn't work.
I guess I'll be going back soon after the new year anyway....

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

The Way I See It # 428

Alright. I'm a pretty patient person. Anyone who knows me knows this. I'll deal with just about anything, but this is too much.

It is one thing for you to decide that your major is not for you. That's fine, everyone has trouble finding a major. It's a completely different thing to discredit my education, and my major of choice. While I can deal with your griping about classes, and how your interests aren't being met, I won't tolerate you calling my interests worthless, stupid, and not worthy of your time. I don't appreciate it when you call Anthropology a worthless major at VCU. I certainly don't appreciate it that you say a degree from VCU is not as respected as one from another school. You could technically say that about any school in the country. Besides, if you really felt that way you'd be transferring, or you would have applied and gone to another school in Virginia.

Please, don't talk to me again about it. Just follow your instincts and move into another major.

The Way I See It # 428

I wish that I had a craft that I was really good at so that I could blog about it. A lot of people scoff when they tell me that they despise the idea of "personal" blogs, and that they much prefer blogs about a certain subject, whether it be fashion, politics, comic books, cooking, knitting, whatever.
I would say that I agree. When it comes to the types of blogs that I read, I'm far more interested in topics about things I'm unfamiliar with, or am obsessed with, rather than reading about someone's personal life. Not that I don't like reading personal blogs; I love them. But I would say a majority of the new blogs I start reading are about a certain subject unrelated to the personal life of the author.

On that note, thank you for reading!

While I do have a blog about fashion and design in general, it's unlike most other fashion blogs I've become a fan of. Mostly because the fashion blogs I read include pictures of the authors, and they clothes they have. I for one, have no money to spend on clothing, and have used this as an excuse not to look cute and fashionable in my day-to-day. This will simply have to change. I can't hide behind a monetary excuse for the way I look when it's fairly easy to look stylish on the dime. So I will be putting my outfits together and taking pictures. I think that this will also help with me finding out exactly what my style is, because, really, I have no idea what it is at this point. If you'd like to see the pictures, or if you're unaware of my fashion (ish) blog, don't hesitate to visit here.

Just a quick update, I've added a language translator to the page. I've decided that it might be beneficial for my French if I have my blog translated into it so I can read aloud and feel proficient. If you happen to speak another language (or several) you can get practice AND keep up with my life. (I've also added it to Interior Motive). You can thank me when we carry on a conversation in french. :)

Speaking of readers, I've noticed some new readers (because I'm creepy and sitemeter allows me to do this). Welcome!

Shifting gears, I've been at the library all night studying for my Physics exam next week. I decided to get some Starbucks. By the way, I find it appalling that there are no late-night coffee shops except for the Village and 3rd Street Diner (a long ass walk). At any rate, I was standing in line, and a guy behind me told the barista his order. He said,
"Yeah, I'll have a coffee....erm... the largest size you have.... and also... another largest size... and... do you guys do iced coffee?"
The barista took his order, and I turned to him,
Me: "It's called a Venti"
Him: "What?"
Me: "The largest size, it's a 'Venti'"
Him: "Oh, thank you!"
Me: "Have you never been to a Starbucks before?"
Him: "ermm... no."
Me: "Wow! Rare breed!"
Him: "Yeah, well I'm cramming, so....and it's my parents money... they can afford it...."
Me: "Well, then why not?"

It was refreshing to see someone who had never been to a Starbucks. It made my day, actually.

Monday, December 1, 2008

The Way I See It # 427

While I've always wanted to do anthropology, i understand my friend Sarah's concern. The anthro department at vcu isn't exactly leading me to conclude that this is what i want to do with my life. but i think that if i decide to double major that would make things better. I want to work in a museum, be a director or a curator, and i would probably need an Art history degree to do so. so I'm seriously considering double majoring, if not majoring, and then minoring in Anth. I'm ahead, hwoever, and i think that it would be okay to double up.

I've also decided that i feel very 'blah' right now. i think i need yet another make over...