The Way I See It # 535

FML I have so much work to do.

This Islamic Ethics paper is kicking my butt.
I still have French to do.
I need to apply for more jobs.
I need to start making money.


can $10,000 drop into my lap please?

The Way I See It # 527

my work load will never end.

I will feel better when I:

1. Have my volunteer project settled and planned.
2. have part of my Archaeology paper done.
3. finish my Ethics paper.



today I need to lock it up.

I need to feel better about school.

The Way I See It # 525

Oh my god school is kicking my ass right now. Time to make a to-do list for tonight:

1. French homework
2. Ethics paper, due Thursday, read islam chapter?
3. Begin Archaeology research paper: solidify thesis.
4. Finish reading Witchcraft readings and start formulating paper for next week
5. apply for job with the school of Education
6. Look up classes and figure out when to register
7. Find Ethics volunteer work. Get hours arranged.


it's going to be a long haul until the end of the semester. Jesus Christ.

Good thing this weekend was awesome!

The Way I See It # 524

Ihatestudying

The Way I See It # 512

I just found out that I am closing next Friday at the book store, only to return the next morning to open at 8:30 on Saturday.



FUCK MY LIFE.

The Way I See It # 507

Having Laryngitis and not being able to communicate with words is ridiculously frustrating.

The Way I See It # 501

I feel like beating someone to death.

but no one in particular.... *wink*

I think that the human mind sometimes shuts itself off in order to control...well... uncontrollable anger, and I feel like this is probably a good thing. What's bad is that it leaves you in a pretty weird state, and it's hard to think about anything productive. I have so much to do this week before I go home. I won't be able to get home until Saturday because I have to work on Friday night.

I need to reconsider working at the bookstore. I don't get a lot of hours, and I'm not paid very well. however, I'm afraid I won't be able to find another job.

Something tells me that I'm going to be writing a check for $650 tomorrow, and I won't be getting reimbursed....

The Way I See It # 498

Although I cleaned my apartment the other night, my bed is a disaster area. I have all of my school work splayed out around me, and I'm sitting here with the realization that I ate an entire footlong Subway sub for dinner. And I just finished the rest of my Ben and Jerry's. Goddammit. I mean, I shouldn't feel bad. I was hungry and I took care of that. ugh, fuck it.

I studied for my french test, and I think I'll be fine, I also did my readings.
I just remembered that I have work tomorrow from 5-9:30, which will blow because work is so mind numbingly boring.

SNAP
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF.

The Way I See It # 496

My life is so boring. Nothing is happening and I guess I should be grateful. Nothing bad had happened, and really with everything that everyone else seems to be going through, I should be counting my stars. I'm feeling for a friend right now who has just had shit dumped on top of her in rapid succession. She's opening up to me, and I'm worried that my hesitance to make a helpful gesture is coming off as insincere. I want to help, but I haven't figured her out yet, and because I haven't I don't know how to help her. I guess just be there to listen and check up on her is what I should be (and have been) doing, and I hope for right now that that is enough.

I'm in the library right now waiting to go to Art History. I'm standing at a computer because there are no stations available, but I don't really mind. My legs and shoulders are stiff from yoga, and standing is helping that out, I think.

I'm making an exceptional racket on the third floor. I haven't been up here in a while, and I forgot just how much talking goes on. Everyone seems to be looking at me once in a while, probably because I'm not really looking at the computer screen and because I'm typing incredibly fast. It's so loud, no wonder people are staring. Maybe I'll get a missed connection about this.

GIRL TYPING LOUDLY AT CABELL (m4w)(Cabell library)
SHUT THE FUCK UP.


I mean, I hope so. Really if I wanted to be obnoxiously loud I'd be doing a dance in the boots I'm wearing, as they are already deafening when I walk across a hardwood floor (or in this case Linoleum). I feel as though people get annoyed just by me walking into a room. some say that the sound of a pair of high heels is empowering. Sometimes I feel like this; like I can kick ass and take names in these boots I'm wearing. Other time, though, I feel as though I'm just to jerk in a loud pair of shoes.

I feel like I have been eating too much. Maybe it's because this girl I know continues to make fat remarks in my direction. She thinks she's being funny, I think she's a real BITCH. UGH I can't stand her. She can suck my dick.


Alright, time to go, enough of the loud typing, it's time to pound linoleum.

The Way I See It # 492

Will I be in this situation every weekend? I guess if things are awkward/weird I can always leave. I think I can hold my own, I hope so. I know people, I get along with everyone, I shouldn't be worried.

The Way I See It # 481

I feel like my emotions are a roller coaster.
I think overall I had a bad day.

This morning wasn't good.
I found out that it is impossible for me to Double Major in Anthropology and Art History.
The weather was disgusting today, and thus I felt disgusting.
I didn't feel like going to class at all.
I've been exhausted all day from my 6 AM wake up
My Apartment is a mess.
My hair is a mess, I need a hair cut really badly.
I'm studying for my French test and I'm worried I won't do well.

If I get stuck in another cold shower I don't know what I'm going to do.

The Way I See it # 454

I feel tired.
I feel unmotivated to do anything.
I can't believe I have this week, and then I'm back in Richmond to work.
Will anyone else be in Richmond next week?
My New Year's Eve plans are sad.
I try to occupy my time on the computer, but there is nothing of substance to do. Does anyone have any good book recommendations? I'm about to start working in a book store and I don't even read.

The Way I See It # 423

I've been laying on my stomach, resting myself up on my elbows for the last hour and a half.

my entire upper body is stiff...

dammit.

The Way I See It # 421

So I just realized how daunting my French final is going to be. I think that if I successfully review with the study worksheet I'll be okay. I really want to get an A on it, because I'd like to think that I can one day become fluent in French. Maybe one day I'll move to France and cut out the expensive French courses all together. However, until that day comes It's French up to the ears until I get out of undergraduate study.... I guess.

So I'm completely perturbed about my wallet situation. It was either lost (although I don't understand how I could have lost it) or stolen out of my purse. Now I have a lot of work to do with that, plus my physics final project, Thanksgiving, finals, and whatever the fuck. Good thing I don't keep my student ID in my wallet because I would have no money and no way to eat. (phew!)

I hope no one decides to use my SS # and ruin my credit....
because that would probably ruin my life.

The Way I See It # 420

I lost my wallet.

or rather, my wallet was stolen.


ugh. Just what I need on a busy Sunday and right before Thanksgiving.

The Way I See It # 374

I already wrote tonight, but I am restless and up. I'm depressed. I'm alone, in my room. Usually being alone/the only one awake at night makes me feel comfortable and inspired. Now it only forces me to think, and that's the last thing I want to do. I thought being home would be comforting. But Friday I was alone all day, today I went to Tysons, but something felt different. I was alone when I went, and even when Mom and Kara joined me I felt like it just wasn't the same. Naturally being home by myself doesn't feel the same either. I thought the peace would calm me, but it's only left me uneasy, and I feel anxious to get back to Richmond. I don't want to feel like that. I guess I'm worried about a lot of stuff. I always have shit in the back of my head.

I'm getting emotions and feelings that I haven't had in... years. I don't want them. I want them to get out of my head and I want to be left alone. I hate....


I hate everything in this moment.

Maybe if I wait my perspective will change.

The Way I See It # 304: I am an emotional champ.

The only thing going for me right now is my prospective pay check, sleeping over at my boyfriends house, and eating lunch today, and leaving for richmond in a little less than two weeks.

What's going on Lisa's life that she doesn't like?

1. Working so many hours that she hadn't seen Sidney in three fucking days.
2. The only shoes she has for work have no support and is there such a thing as heel splints? Because she feels like she has those.
3. Her dad is being a class A jerk. This is usual, but lately it's been getting unbearable.
4. She has to map out every thing she does in a day because her family now only can use one car (This is related to point #3).


As soon as I get to Richmond I'm booking it for Belle Isle and a corona. Can we do that?

we should all have a reunion party when everyone gets back in town. I'd like to see everyone again as soon as possible.

so for now, life sucks. Hopefully life won't suck in Richmond.